Missing my Baby

Well so much has happened in the last little while. Let me give you a recap. You better sit down, this may take awhile.

Well living on my own has come to a bitter sweet end. Turns out my roomate is a lying skanky whore, she never paid our rent. (as I told her, Rob was right: she is a dirty fucking cunt!) The money I gave her went somewhere else.I left her there, got my dad to go there and pack up my stuff. That friendsip is over. I was the one peson who would have stood by her through anything, and I was the one person she fucked over. I can honestly say I miss her, but not enough to let her walk over me again.

So... I am back living with my dad.... and that... well isn't going to bad to be honest. I am sharing a room with Kaylee, and we are actually getting on. I set our room up all nice and I like spending time with my dad and Cody and Ruth. I have grown really close with her. I can talk to her about anything. It is going well so far. It is allowing me to catch up on my bills, and be closer with my family, which I need, because I am mising Rob like CRAZY!

I started off seeing Rob once or twice a week, now with work being so crazy and hetic I haven't seen him in 10 days and won't see him for another 7 more. It really sucks. I love him so much, and it fucking hurts. I feel like the distance is putting a strain on us. Not on his part, but on mine. I hate this distance. I call him just to hear his voice, and then I have nothing to say to him. I feel left out because he is having a great time, and I am still here, being lame. But he loves me and that is all that matters.

Work is nuts to say the least. I work non-stop. I am soooo NOT complaining because my paycheck is gonna rock and I am gonna get a good chunk of my bills paid off. I am loving it though. I have no social life, and I am always tired, but work rocks!

I am the proud owner of a RRSP! Yes that is right I am planning for my future! I think of it as a downpayment on a house at somepoint in the future..... Plus I have an account that I can't get the money out of with my debit card, so I am saving money for when Rob and I finally do get married. We'd get married tomorrow if we could, but he still has school, and I still have work. I think OUR BIG DAY will be as planned... in Ocotber of 2006. I was hoping for next year, but I don't need a ring on my finger nor a piece of paper to know that I love him and him me, for the rest of our lives. I this lady come into work the other day and tell me about her family, which often happens when discussing shopping... and she met her husband (of 22 years!) when they were 16 and they got married at 19! it was kind of inspiring. I hear all the time that we are TOO YOUNG and that is will never work. It was nice to have someone who has ben there in my corner!

Um...... what else is new...... Thanksgiving is coming soon..... I can't wait! My birthday is in 2 months and 24 days! (yes folks Christmas is in 2 months and 24 days!) So for my newest address send me an e-mail (tinydreamteam@hotmail.com) with your phone number in it... so I can call you and tell you!

I was wondering the other day if anyone still even bothers to read this thing.....

I still haven't talked to mom since the last time.... I don't even miss her. I was missing a dream of what could have been, not what is. I know now that I will have Marnie sooner rather then later.... her and mom didn't appear to get on either. Typical

If you are reading this: Congrats on the wedding, I bet you made a beautiful bride. Sounds like your hunnymoon was "fun"

Well that is all..... I am tired and need to put my cousins to bed.... yes I am soo lame I am babysitting on a Friday night! So goodbye all, hope to hear from you soon!

xoxoxoxoxox

-Nat-a-lee giggled about a boy at 10:40 PM Girly Giggles [ .]

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