Happy New Year

Happy New Year !

Welcome 2005! and all the crazy things it will bring! For me it's a baby, a wedding and a new way of life!

Rob and I didn't do much, we went to his cousins and rang in the New Year. I wasn't feeling well (what else is new?) and Rob was tired, so we were home by 1am.

Being pregnant is taking it's toll on me. I am an emotional basketcase. One minute I am happy and smiling, the next minute I am crying, unsure why and mad at the world. I feel bad, this must be hard on Rob. Some days he can't even look at me without me being offended and him not knowing why. They don't tell you this in the brochure of pregnancy that your hormones go crazy and you have no control over them. They also leave out the part about being irritable and cranky and short tempered. They neglect to mention that your sex life goes down hill cause you are either too nauseous or on the off chance you are horny, you are too tired to actually put in a real effort or it hurts to damn much to enjoy and then you miss the days sex was fast! The worst part, just when you think your puking days are over and you start feeling good, BAM it comes back and kicks you in the ass and you spend the day pray to the porcelain gods. That is just the start of being pregnant. There are more things I could write about that TRUST ME you don't want to hear. (Example: Having random body parts leak at odd times.... less then fun.)
I am told that it is all worth it once I see my little bundle of joy, and this I believe to be true. I know that once I see the little one Rob and I enjoyed creating, all the pain and suffering will seem painless. Our first ultra-sound is on January 14th. I can't wait. We finally get to see our baby, and hopefully the doctor will be able to tell us what it is. We want to know so badly. We have our names down to the final few. The baby book has been started and the baby stuff is starting to pile up. I am 2 weeks shy of 5 months pregnant, so I over half way there. Time has gone so quickly. It still seems like only yesterday I was finding out.

Now that the new year is here, Rob and I are starting to plan not only for our baby, but for our lives. We have a wedding to plan and moving out! We are aiming to be moved out for March or April first. I can't wait to set up our own place and just have that freedom!

In a couple weeks I am starting my wedding dress hunt. It should be interesting as I will be rounder in the front then when I actually need to wear it. lol But I can't wait to see the beautiful dress I will be wearing when I walk down the aisle to become Rob's wife!

I went prego clothes shopping on Monday. It was so much fun. It was like being in a store made especially for you (and all other prego's) It feels good to have clothes that fit properly. Rob tells me I look so beautiful in them!

We have spent a lot of time over at dad's lately, which is really cool with me. I love that Rob and dad can just hang out and get on so well. They do boy things (many a trips to the shed...) and Ruthie and I do prego stuff. Cody is getting so big! Kaylee doesn't live there anymore, so it makes visiting a lot easier.

I think I felt the baby move the other day.... it was like a light flutter, sorta like butterflies. It makes being pregnant more real when you start to feel your baby growing inside you. It is a feeling I can't even describe. I wish that feeling upon EVERYONE! It is a life experience!

Well I am so tired, and Rob and I are going to bed to read Harry Potter. (Well actually Rob snuggles with me and I read it to him... but don't tell anyone... hahaha... and I am reading to.... the baby... haha) Good night all.

Love you

xoxoxoxox

Song: Over and Over

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can’t keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause it’s on in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again

And I can’t take it yeah I can’t shake it

Nooo I can’t wait to see you

Want to see if you still got that look in your eyes

That one you had for me before we said our goodbyes

And it’s a shame that we got to spend our time

Being mad about the same things

Over and over again

About the same things

Over and over again

Ohh But I think she’s leaving

Ooh man she’s leaving

I don’t know what else to do

(I Can’t go on not loving you)

Cause its all in my head

I think about it over and over again

And I can’t keep picturing you with him

And it hurts so bad, yeah

Cause its on in my head

I think about it over and over again

I replay it over and over again yeah

That is a little bit of the Nelly song with Tim McGraw.... I have only heard a couple times... and I am not sure what I think of it yet. Nelly and Tim.... Not sure of that combo.

-Nat-a-lee giggled about a boy at 1:09 AM Girly Giggles [ .]

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